Thursday, November 10, 2011

All the gory details

Here is the birth story, for any interested parties.

WARNING: It might be gross

Sunday morning (my due date) I was lying in bed, about to get up and get ready for church. Jordan and I had spent some time after we woke up talking to my belly, giving baby girl a pep talk. I had just said to Jordan: "This day owes me a baby" when I felt a particularly strong kick, and heard a pop. I thought that was kind of weird, so I got up to go to the bathroom and make sure everything was normal. As soon as I was on my feet, I realized that I was doing some serious leaking, and it hit me that my water had broken. I had to tell Jordan about three times, he kept saying "what?!, wait, what?!"

Panic mode.

I had no idea what to do, so I stood in the bathtub to keep the floors clean while Jordan ran to grab my pregnancy reference book. The book said to call my Dr., so I made a call to my clinic and talked to a nurse. She confirmed that my water had broken, and told me to make my way to the hospital, and that she would contact my doctors and let the hospital know I was on the way.

While I was taking a shower to clean myself off (it was sticky, gross) Jordan was running around the apartment freaking out. It was pretty funny, that adorable man. I could hear him running around and just yelling-not saying anything, just shouting "aaaahhhhh!". We got ready as fast as we could, and made our way to the hospital.

Once there, we checked in and got a small triage room. They tested the leaking fluid to make sure it was amniotic fluid. The test came back positive, so they led me to my giant labor and delivery room. Seriously, this room was giant. There was a sitting area with a couch, coffee table, and chairs, the bathroom had a big whirlpool tub, and there was a ton of room for me to walk around while contracting.

Up to that point, I hadn't really had consistent contractions. They were small, and 15 minutes apart. They decided to put me on a very small dose of pitocin to help speed things along. As soon as the iv was in, I felt like the contractions started to come really strong and really close together. This was at 2:00 pm- I did the whole "natural labor" thing for about three hours before deciding that I didn't want to feel that anymore. The contractions hurt like crazy, so I asked for an epidural.

Oh, that epidural. Getting it put in was the worst. I was still contracting, and Jordan accidentally let me know how big the needle was before they stuck it in my back. Once it kicked in though...bliss. It was such a nice relief to not be feeling those contractions anymore. This was 5:30 pm. I couldn't walk around after the epidural, so I had to hang out on the bed for the rest of labor.

It wasn't until 11:30 pm that I had dilated enough to begin pushing. This part was really hard. It seemed like no matter how hard I pushed, I never got any closer to delivering a baby. With each contraction, I would push as hard as I could, and then wait for the next one. This lasted for so so so long. I was so thirsty, but every time I would try and drink water I would start throwing up. Also, the epidural kept me from feeling the contractions, but I still felt all the pressure of a human slowing moving down the birth canal. I tried as hard as I could to not think of that pressure as pain, but it was a pretty fine line. I only looked at the clock a couple times, always surprised at how long it had been.

After four hours of pushing, the doctors starting to talk to me about using a vacuum, and if that didn't work forceps, and if that didn't work a c-section. I knew I wanted to avoid the vacuum and forceps, and Jordan and I both felt hugely against a c-section. Thankfully, her heartbeat was good despite the time spent in the birth canal, so they let me opt to keep pushing. This was the point where I feel like I was outside my body. I was just so exhausted, and I could feel baby girl's head move forward with each push, and then move back. I felt like everything in my body was turned of,f and I was just watching myself push and push and push, take a break waiting for the next contraction, throw up, and then start again.

Finally, her head got out. She had been looking sideways, so her head was getting stuck. The poor girl, her head was so bruised and so swollen. There were a couple sores where blisters had formed and ruptured. I didn't see them pull her out of me, I was so tired and was so in the mindset that I had to keep pushing that I didn't even realize she was out until Jordan told me to look. I saw her just as they were lifting her up, and placing her on my chest. I couldn't believe it! They gave me a baby! It was over! She was finally born at 5:03 am after fourteen hours of labor (from the time my water broke) and five and a half hours of pushing. Jordan and I just held her little hands, counted her fingers and toes, and laughed. It was awesome. I was so glad that it was over, and so glad that our baby was there. We knew looking at her that she was Daisy.

After Jordan cut the cord, he and the nurses took Daisy away to clean her up, weigh and measure her (7 lbs 10 oz, 20 in), and do all the security measures. Her footprints were recorded on a sheet with my finger prints, a tag was attached to her umbilical cord stub that has a chip in it to shut down elevators and stairwells so no one could take her, and matching wrist tags for all three of us. Meanwhile, the doctors were attending to me. Thankfully, I barely tore-just one stitch. I pushed out the placenta, and they carried it over to me to show it to me. It was super gross and pretty fascinating. They lifted up the opening for me to see where Daisy and floated around for nine months, and it was hard to believe that it held my baby. It looked so thin! I can't believe it didn't pop before then.

We were taken to our recovery room, which was super nice-a HUGE shower-and promptly passed out.

We are so glad to be home with our Daisy, and so in love with her. She is just super adorable.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Fighting Pickles

So the elevator in our building smells EXACTLY like the elevator in the dorm I lived in at art school.

I was just looking at some pictures from back then, watching my giant baby belly move, and thought to myself: "Wow. Aren't things different now?" It's been so long (5 years? 6 years?) that I don't really think about it that often...that is until I finally made the connection between the elevator smells. Weird sentence, I know, but it was only last week that I realized where I knew that smell from, and felt like I was right back on the third floor.

I definitely miss parts of it. I miss working long hours with really talented people. I miss being able to focus all my time on art stuff. I miss the novelty of living away from home for the first time. I miss the friends I made.

Our lives are all so different now, and even though I occasionally indulge in daydreams of me living lives like them-living in a big city, working as an artist...I'm happy with the choices I made. I'm glad I left art school for BYU, glad I got married, and real glad to be expecting a baby. I still paint. Not as often as I would like, but I still do. I hope I always will.

Jordan is really supportive of me making art. He never wants that part of me to become less of a priority. What a gem.

Anyways, tomorrow is my due date. Tomorrow owes me a baby.

Monday, October 31, 2011

Packed bags

I'm starting to get nervous.

Before now, I knew I wasn't going into labor anytime soon because I couldn't go into labor while Jordan was on his business trip. He got home Thursday night, and since then I've been using other things I've been putting off to mentally delay the thought of going into labor. Here are some examples"

I can't go into labor until I have the apartment really really clean.

I can't go into labor until I have my bag packed.

I can't go into labor until we unpack and set up the car seat, stroller, and bassinet.

I can't go into labor until I finish all the headbands and clips for the craft fair.

Well...Jordan started to notice I was putting some of this off. So unfortunately for my sanity, the apartment is nearly spotless (just bathrooms left), the baby gear is out of the boxes and set up, my bag is packed, and I am nearly done with all the hair clips.

I know last post I was all "GET THIS BABY OUT OF ME", but now that it is getting closer, it's starting me make me really nervous. Really, I know I still have two weeks. My due date is six days away, but it is pretty likely that I'll be late. My doctor will induce me after going a week or so over...but that doesn't stop me from obsessing over every braxton hicks contraction, or thinking to myself every morning: "Is this the day?"

It's okay though. We have a ton of ice cream in the freezer now. So. That makes me feel better.

It also makes me feel better knowing that we have so many people around us that care and want to help out. Our families have been sending us stuff non stop, and have been calling me almost every day to see how I'm doing. A friend in my ward threw me a surprise baby shower (I thought I was going to be babysitting her baby, so I showed up in stretchy pants and one of Jordan's shirts-wear what fits, right?-still embarrassing), which was such a nice surprise. I feel like I've made some real nice friends here.

Anyways, I'm starting to get real nervous about labor, but it's okay. I know it will be just fine, and our baby will come out all normal and healthy and stuff. One of the things I am the most excited for is to see Jordan hold her for the first time. This is going to be really sappy, so I'm sorry...but it just melts my heart anytime he talks about her, and I can't wait to see him be a dad. He is going to be so great.

We have been having a real nice fall-apple orchards, pumpkin patches, corn mazes, donuts, costumes, etc. We don't take any pictures ever. We need to get better about this when our baby comes.

I'll keep everyone posted, I promise.

Monday, October 24, 2011


My feet are so swollen, my toes are sticking out at weird angles.

Two weeks.

Jordan is out of town until Thursday night. Friday commences the nightly walks, trampoline jumping, and spicy food eating frenzy.


Monday, October 10, 2011

Fulfilling promises

So I thought we would have Babygirls room done by now, but it isn't. It's close though! So here are some in progress pictures:

Here is the crib. In front of it is a sheep skin rug my Dad got while he was on his mission in New Zealand.

This is a shot of the bedding. The crib skirt and sheet are from sheets found at a thrift store (and washed real well, don't worry). unfortunately, I didn't have enough of the yellow floral material to make a ruffled crib skirt so it is just boring straight panels. The outside of the bumper is from fabric I got at Joanns (but don't worry! I used a coupon!) and the inside is fabric my Mom sent me.

That cute elephant was given to us by my Aunt Jennifer. Isn't it awesome?

These are going to be hung over the crib. Jordan picked out the lanterns-they light up! He was pretty cute when he found them. I love how excited he is about this little girl.

A cool mirror I found at a thrift store and repainted. Also a small piece of the curtains-the color isn't the best in the picture of the curtains, they are greener than they seem.

I have two pieces of this fabric, and I love it so much I can't bear to cut into it. So I am going to use a spray adhesive and stick it onto two small canvases to hang on the wall. I love it when my Mom sends me her left over fabric!

K, ignore the obvious need for another coat of yellow paint. I just wanted to show you this great lamp. Another thrift store find, and I recovered the shade with fabric from an old dress that needed too many modesty modifications to make it worth it. I have more of that material, and I will probably make something cute for Babygirl (once I get better at sewing. It's happening!)

Not my favorite chair, but it is going to be great for nursing. It is real comfy, and it was super on sale.

Side table we are repainting to have next to the glider. The recovered lamp will go there.

Not pictured are some more stuff for the walls-I can't paint the walls, so I want to have plenty of stuff up to make the room more exciting than it is. I have some cool old platters, some more fabric to affix to canvases, and a couple watercolors of giraffes and hot air balloons and stuff. I also want to get/make some letters and put her name on the wall. Won't be doing that until after she is born, because although we are 98% certain about her name, we aren't telling just in case we decide we need to change it. It's pretty dang cute though.

Here are some pictures of the headbands I am making for the craft fair with my Mom, and for mah baybee.

These take forever, but I really love them. They are going on headbands like this:

These are all on alligator clips, but I am making more that will go onto elastic.

Specifically this elastic, which I just got off etsy. It was incredibly cheap, which I am always real happy about.

I love this one.

I need to make more of these.

Aaaaannndd a belleh shot.

This is 36 weeks 1 day. That's right. Her due date is in 27 days. We are anticipating she will be late, but still. 27 days!

She is more than welcome to come anytime (save for Jordan's business trips). I am super uncomfortable and ready to get her off my spine :)

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Third Trimester is the Worst

So lately I have had this awful pain in my left leg, along the inside joint area. It makes the simplest things really painful-putting on pants, getting into the car, getting out of bed, switching sleeping positions...basically any time I move my left leg. Once I start walking, the pain calms down, but getting started is more painful than it should be. So I talked to the Dr. about it today, and this is what is going on-normally during this late stage of pregnancy, my body sends out hormones or chemicals or whatever that cause the ligaments around my pelvis and pubic bone to relax and loosen, preparing for delivery. Mine went overboard, and now my pubic bone is all misaligned and that is what is causing me really annoying pain. The best part? There is nothing that can be done. It will fix itself after I give birth (thank goodness) but until then, I just have to deal with it. Maybe by itself it would be fine, but add on the back pain, and leg cramps, and thank you. All I can do is slow down, take it easy, and take frequent rests. Good thing we have netflix.

Ugh, k I had this big long post written but it turns out I published it to a different blog that I technically contribute to, but never actually contribute to. The above paragraph was all I was able to save-which is a shame because it is definitely the grumpiest. Here are the main points I lost:

-My mom is great at quilting and doing a craft fair, and wants me to send her some headbands to sell at her booth. So I'm making a ton. Pictures to come.

-I'm glad I never had the money to spend on stuff we don't need: read this article

-I'll have pictures of the baby's room soon.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Friday, September 9, 2011


Guyz. Just got back from a bunch of yard sales. I'm really proud of what I got, and since this is my blog and I get to write about whatever the heck I want, I am going to list my bounty below:

1 Baby Bjorn carrier
1 crib mattress cover
2 changing table covers
4 blankets
6 wee hats
1 hooded towel
8 burp cloths
2 pairs of tights
11 pairs of socks
19 onsies
2 hooded jackets
9 dresses
1 adorable cardigan
14 pairs of pants
11 footed sleepers/pj's
6 shirts

And I only paid $30 for all of that. Only a few of the items here were for newborns or 0-3 months. I got most of that from people selling clothes on craigslist. Today I started getting clothes for 3 months and beyond, because I did not want to be in a bind once Babygirl grows out of the smaller sizes.

I know this is boring information, but I'm really happy I got so much for so little.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Getting Ready

So I've started making headbands for Babygirl.

I am going to experiment a little bit with these. On the back I have sewn a little snap button. My plan is to make some elastic headbands, and sew the other side of the little snap button onto the elastic headband. That way, you can change the flower or bow on any given elastic band-I decided to try this because I wanted to make some headbands in fun colors, but didn't want to have to make a million. This way, I make one band in each color I choose, and then I can pick whatever flower or bow to snap on. My worry is that some of the larger flowers might be floppy when snapped on. We will see. If that is the case, I'll just give the larger flowers their own band.

We have also started to work on getting clothes for Babygirl. I would love to buy everything at baby gap, but unfortunately that is just not an option. So I have been stalking craigslist, and found a ton of ladies that are selling their barely used baby girl clothes for incredibly cheap. I have spent maybe $35 so far and have bags of clothes. This way I can get a couple awesome things from baby gap, and all the sleepers and day clothes for super cheap.

This week's project will be sewing the crib bedding and curtains. About two months ago I got some great old sheets at a thrift store. I'm going to make the crib skirt out of that, and I got some really cute flannel for the sheet. I'm using my old duvet cover from college to make the curtains. I really like the material, and I am excited to be able to reuse as much as I can.

I don't know if I will get around to this, but I have found some online tutorials for little dresses. I'm not too confident about my garment sewing if I never mention sewing clothes for Babygirl agian, assume that it did not go well. if it works out, of course I'll post pictures.

Jordan leaves for another trip this Tuesday. Don't worry, I've calmed down about his travelling a ton since his first trip. In fact, the second trip passed by so fast I hardly had time to notice it. K, exaggeration, but whatever. I get a ton done when he is on a business trip. I think it has something to do with me not doing any cooking or laundry.

Anyways, just wanted to share some of the stuff I'm making for Babygirl. My mom is awesome and sent me a ton of great fabric, so I will probably be making some bows out of some of that. Also my sister is in labor with her second boy as we speak, and I got some great houndstooth flanel for some bowties for her boys. I'll probably make something scholarly for Babygirl with the extra material.

Glue gun is still on. K bye.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Two months?!

This might sound silly, but I only just realized that I have two months and twelve days until baby girls due date.


I'm starting to get pretty stressed about getting everything we need, getting her room all set up, picking a name, becoming mentally prepared...oh, and pushing a human out of me. Yea, I'd say I'm particularly nervous about that last part.

So Jordan and I decided last night that now is the time to put our efforts and budget toward getting ready for the baby.

One nice thing about living out here is that there are tons of nice fairly new baby stuff for sale on craigslist. So many people here only have one or two kids, so they have no need to hang on to all the clothes, toys, furniture, and baby gear. It's also usually a really nice brand too. Already we got a crib off craigslist for free. I've been looking, and there are. Bunch of people selling all of their baby clothes together for about $.50 an item. That us going to suit our budget much better than buying everything new. If we can get a ton of day and night time outfits off craigslist, I can go and get the little dresses at baby gap that taunt me everytime I see them.

Thankfully I'm nearly done with the paintings I wanted to finish before the baby came. I haven't made a ton of headway on the watercolors I'm doing for the baby's room, but I thing I'll be able to get everything done.

Still. Pretty nervous. Also excited, but right now mostly nervous.

Saturday, August 20, 2011


K I'm really sorry, but I'm going to complain some more. I'm typing this on the tiny keys if my itouch, because today my computer died. It would cost between $300-$700 to fix, and we decided not to fix it for the following reasons:

That is a lot of money that we need for the baby and other stuff

We have been planning on getting a new iMac around Christmas anyways

My Mac was five years old-pretty old for a computer

I'm still really sad though. I have an external hard drive, so I didn't lose anything important...but I loved my computer! I don't know that using my iPod to view reference photos for art projects will work as well.

Jordan's computer died when we moved, but he does have one for work. My dad has offered to send me a thinkpad that he currently doesn't need, and he will put Linux on it for me. I'm really grateful for that... It hasn't been a full day but I'm already starting to realize how dependent I am on having a computer.

I felt like such a spoiled brat, crying over losing my Mac, but I just cry over everything these days.

On my way home from the apple store I got myself some "I'm sad and pregnant" food. I should never go to the store when I'm hungry and hormonal, this is what I end up getting:

Mac & cheese
Ice cream
Double stuft Oreos
Funsize candy bars

I have hardly touched any of it, the emotions and craving passed...but this week is another business trip week, so now I'm at least stocked up.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Being a Hermit and Imma Complain a Ton

Guyz. Jordan is on a business trip. Which means that I am alone all the time.

It hasn't been that bad...but he only left yesterday. He is in Georgia, and he will get back Thursday night. But then next Monday...he leaves AGAIN. This time for New Orleans. He will be gone for the same amount of time.

These are the things I have decided I need to do every day to stay sane.

Change clothes
Have somewhat normal meal times
Leave the apartment building

Sounds so simple, but when you know you aren't going to have any human contact, it is hard to convince yourself to put forth the effort.

The main problem with him traveling is that I am still working on making friends here. I feel really comfortable hanging out with couples in our ward...but I haven't branched out to individual hangouts yet. I guess I haven't had to make new friends in so long I am having a hard time remembering how. I feel a little uncomfortable thinking about asking someone to hang out with me during the day. Most of the women I have met have at least one kid, so I know that they are busy with that and have routines and stuff. I'm probably being way too self conscious about this, and should just ask someone to hang out with me. But that is so much easier said than done (for me).

This is what I miss the most about Provo. We knew so many people. I really miss my job at the MOA. I liked what I did, and I had great co workers that made it so much fun. Jordan and I both had a ton of friends from our hometowns, cousins...plenty of people that I felt comfortable just calling or texting to do something.

I don't want to sound too "woe is me". I really do like it here. But I would be fooling myself if I didn't say that I get lonely sometimes. I totally do. I'm only now thinking about it though because Jordan isn't here so it's magnified by a billion.

Also making me feel it all the more are my raging pregnancy hormones. I have really been noticing the emotional roller coaster factor as of late. We were shopping over the weekend because Jordan needed new work clothes, and I don't fit into anything. I couldn't find anything that looked good with my giant belly, I was feeling stressed about spending money on clothes when we just bought a bed and have plenty of other things to save for, and before I could even try to calm myself down I burst into tears in the middle of the store. I felt so stupid and Jordan felt like a jerk, even though he did nothing wrong and had nothing to do with me not finding any flattering clothing. He just always feels like it's his fault when I cry, which is sweet but problematic as I cry over everything these days.

I hate having a closet full of clothes that don't fit. And I hate the idea of spending money on clothes I will only wear for a couple months.

Babygirl is making herself at home in my abdomen, kicking my ribs and pressing agains my sciatic nerve. The rib kicking I will take, but the sciatica is awful and hurts really bad. She doesn't do it all the time, probably every couple days she will find her way there and and set up camp for the day.

Still working on names. Part of my outing today (to keep myself showered and sane) was going to Barnes and Noble to read some baby name books. I found some new names to add to the list, though I haven't ran these by Jordan yet so they might not be contenders. I haven't thought about then too much either, they just caught my eye. Here they are:


Ugh. There are just too many options. I am worried I will never feel really excited about a name.

K. Enough complaining and getting stressed out about names. here, as promised, is a picture of mah baybee belleh. I don't think this picture does it justice.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Short update

But a longer update to follow, I promise. With a belly picture, because I'm getting huge and I'm sure everyone is super interested in how far my belly sticks out now. (Pretty far)

Looking at our budget and stuff the other day I realized I won't be able to get living room furniture for a while, sad face. For some reason I was emotionally attached to the idea of replacing our stake center (truly, directly from a stake center) couch and chair with some nicer seating as soon as possible. Now it is looking like it will probably be my Christmas present at the earliest. I mean, I guess we could go out today and get stuff, but we want to pay cash because it's just better all around to not buy things you don't have the money for. Stupid responsibility. Anyways, I am now working on making our living room awesome despite the worst couch ever.

I am also getting started on projects for BabyGirl. I want her room to be great, and I want to make her a lot of stuff myself so she always has it. I'll post pictures of the watercolors once they are in a condition to post.

Wisconsin is still nice. People in our ward have been great, and I finally printed some pictures from our wedding to put up.

The name list is getting longer. We both started really looking at name websites and stuff, and the list has expanded. It is going to get smaller with time, I don't want to go into the hospital with a list that is too huge. Here are some ideas we have, feel free to make suggestions!

Ruby (Jordan's favorite, but I don't think this is her name)

There are definitely more, we have a list written down but I'm not sure where it is right now. Suggestions? Opinions? Any of these too easy for school kids to make fun of?

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Jordan and I went to Utah and it was great. We got to see his family, and then I stayed a couple extra days to see my family and some friends too. Also I bought a giant bottle of jdawgs sauce. For anyone in the Provo area that has never had a jdawg, go here and drool:

As soon as we got back to Madison, my mom flew in for a couple days which was a lot of fun. I got to do stuff with her that normally I wouldn't really have someone to do with-namely fabric stores, Jane Eyre, and drooling over baby girl clothes.

So here is an offspring update:

Babygirl is measuring well, and moving a ton. Also giving me heartburn all the time. Also she makes my legs sore sometimes. I am hungry all of the time now, but the past couple days I have also been feeling nauseous. Nothing like the first trimester, but I am still frustrated to have a (hopefully) temporary return of that less than desirable symptom. I had to get the sugars in my bloods tested by drinking that awful orange drink. It tasted like they took 100 unfrozen otter pops and poured them all into a cup. So the first sip wasn't that bad...but I had to drink much more than that.

With my mom here, I was able to discover that I was making the blanket I showed all of you previously wrong. I could tell, but I couldn't figure out what I was doing. My mom also helped me to get started on a new blanket. You can see an example of the pattern here:

I am using a really pretty light aqua and some magenta.

Also look at my friends blog:

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Harry Potter

In honor of Harry Potter, here are some internet memes for your enjoyment. Click on the image if you need to zoom in.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011


22 week belly shot.

Bearded Jordan excited about setting off fireworks with friends.

Strawberry rhubarb pie

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Anniversary Weekend

So our one year anniversary was this past Saturday. During the week Jordan kept saying things like "I'm so excited for this weekend", and "This weekend is going to be the best weekend ever, except for our wedding". Don't get me wrong, I was excited for our anniversary too...but I felt like Jordan was really, really excited. My understanding of our plans were that Saturday night we would go somewhere nice for dinner in the city. We have been exploring Madison a little bit every weekend, and I assumed that we would continue on that trend.

Well. Jordan had other ideas.

He called me Friday, around 3:00. We talked for a little bit, and he mentioned that he would come home an hour early at 4:00. I asked him why, and he said: "Oh, I just thought we could get an early start on our weekend...because I booked us a room at a bed and breakfast for tonight and tomorrow night. You have one hour to pack". Totally caught me off guard.

We didn't go too far away-it was only about a half hour drive. It was really pretty. Basically everywhere in Wisconsin is surrounded by farmland, but this area was particularly farm-y. Typical of our exploits, we took zero pictures. There were a ton of trails to walk around on the property, and we went into a nearby town for their swiss festival. New Glarus was settled by a bunch of Swiss so they play that up a ton. When the town is as small as New Glarus, you have to distinguish yourself anyway you can. I mean, it isn't like small farm towns in Wisconsin are scarce. The swiss festival also seemed typical of our experiences in Wisconsin thus far-a ton of beer, cheese, and brats. It was fun to walk around the town, watch all the drunkards, and eat some good food.

I really enjoyed being whisked away. I told Jordan he could plan impromptu trips anytime he wanted.

There was a little boutique in town that was having a huge sale, so I was able to get this Vera Bradley baby bag for a fraction of it's actual cost.

It was a wonderful time, and I thought it was very sweet of Jordan to make those plans.


So. Stay tuned for that!

The Fam